Meeeeh.

I just don't seem to care anymore. I hate this feeling, it's like 4 years ago all over again. Ugggghhhhh.

with love,
Lilet.

Inlove ako?

August 15, 2014.

Spent the whole day at the Guarino's because I didn't have anything planned for the day. I basically just sat the whole day not doing anything. What is my life? Hahahaha.

We also decided to play badminton but since it was kinda late (9:55PM) when we arrived at Raquetas we only got to play for an hour. It was all good though. Just realized how I can't play bdaminton anymore, I suck. Hahahaha. I am actually thinking of getting back to playing it again and finally get in a much better shape. Hooorrraaaaay!!!

They (Ate Love and Jeri) pretty much made fun of my boyfriend the whole time. In a way, I do agree with them. Hahahaha. It's kind of a big deal, you see, having a boyfriend when the both of them are still single. Hahahaha. Just kidding. It's just that they're right in a way and I don't even like the guy that much. It also sucks that he shows his "kayabangan" when it's not needed or whatever. So yeah~ I am not inlove. Well, maybe I am, but to a different person, which, again sucks because we can never become an item because he's still mad at me because of something so stupid I can't even write about.

with love,
Lilet.

Candidly me.

HA! You do what you do to me right now. Don't answer my messages and ignore me all you like but I just want you to know that when I am done and eventually get tired of all of these, you won't even hear from me. You'll realize everything that you've done and I won't even be there to say how stupid you are to treat me like that. Don't you know that I am a master of erasing people from my life?

with love,
Lilet.

5

It's not that I don't love you, I am just not there... yet. I actually really like you. I remember you asked me why I said yes to you, well I don't know B, it just felt right that time and I guess I was kind of pressured to do so.

I just hate that you feel like I am lying to you when I'm actually not. I am not a sweet person, I hate texting and I hate texting someone first, I don't feel comfortable telling someone what I'm doing or where I am and I feel like that's because I got so used to being single, so yeah. I am trying my best to change that for you but I just feel like you don't appreciate that and you just don't trust me enough that you have a lot of doubts about me.

Sorry if you think I am that kind of person. :(



with love,
Lilet.

Where are my friends?

Duck face selfie because why not?

I recently realized that I don't really have any friends left. Of course I do have some but what I mean is I don't have as much friends as before and I don't know if this is a good or a bad thing.

I don't really mind. It just suddenly occurred to me when this one guy I know asked me if I can introduce him to one of my girl friends and I can't even think of anyone other than Jeri. What happened to my long list of friends? Hmmmmmm.

with love,
Lilet.

Lily.

WhatTheActualFrick. Why would you message me and when I message you back you won't even answer my question as if you didn't start this stupid exchange of text messages. Fucking stupid.

with love,
Lilet.

M

Ayo GG! Hahaha jk.

So last night I went to one of my college friends' birthday celebration and I can say that I kind of got tipsy from all the drinking. I sure had a good time. Happy Birthday Harold. :)

The point of this blog post tho is something I realized last night. You see, driving on my way home last night I cried because the song "Almost" by Tamia played on my phone and I suddenly missed M. The realization is that whenever I get drunk I always end up crying my eyes out for whatever reason. I just get too emotional. I could be crying for such a small matter as well, I could be crying because of the rain for all I know. It's kind of annoying because I don't like crying in front of people or someone but I can't really help it, can I?

with love,
Lilet.

HAPPY 1ST OF AUGUST.

Heyyow.

As I am bored and our internet connection is as weird as the weather right now, I am rewatching The Moon That Embraces The Sun while trying to figure out what to do with my life. Hahahaha. No kidding.

with love,
Lilet.