It's not like it's the end of the world for me anyways. My life is just starting and I know a lot of good things will come my way -- eventually. Life is good. Though I cried so much today, I know it's just a way of showing me how beautiful and fun of a feeling being alive is. I appreciate that. I'll always be thankful for every smile and tears.. I'll always think of how life can be a pain in the ass but also be my little heaven.
Of course I'd been so curious of what heaven really is like and I almost took that one little step to cut off everything for me here on this hell of a world but I know the real heaven can wait for an angel like me... I'll be there soon... :D