That should be me.

I srsly wanna post something here so here's a huge instagram photo dump from last year up to now. :)

Watching random YT Kpop videos. Haaaa. SooYoungie is so cute. :)

Running with just 2 hours of sleep!!! Ugh so sleepy. :/

Le Mother arranging Christmas decorations. Merry Christmas everyone.

Done for today!!! Car is all set, pwede na gumala. Hahahaha.

Cooked kimchi fried rice for dinner. Hohohoho.

Sticker for le car.

Crazy crazy friend. I love this girl to death. Hahaha.

Why do I look "kinda" thing here? Love it. Hahaha. New shoes and yes, some parts of le not-so-new car.

Enchanted day. Hahaha. Wagas sa unang sakay!!!

Yieee so cuteee!!!

Nagmamataray lang last night sa TIDES Tagaytay.

Yesterday sa MOA.

Happy friends.

GG (God given) FRIENDS.

Throwback Saturday.

Gala with my besties today. OOTD.

Accompanied my Mom to the salon. Got le hair trimmed as well. Hahahaha. Hello~~~~ I'm homeeeee. I missed my bed. Hahahaha

Finally got to see them again after 1 or so years. I love these girls, syempre kasama din si Erich!!!

Fetched my Grandma and Titas from Palawan. Kinda tired from all the kakulitan but masaya naman.

And because we're bored.

My just-woke-up face. FML.

3 hours of sleep = headache. Ugh.

TAYRD!!!

Sick of my face yet? Hahaha. 90th birthday of my Grandpa.

Heeheehee.

No shame. Maipilit lang talaga.

With le ultimate local celebrity crush, Mr. COCO MARTIN. 

Tambay with my cousins.

Magnum overdose with Hannah.

Or maybe not. Hahaha. Too lazy to post every picture right now. :)

with love, Lileth.

A thousand miles.

So as of my last post, I decided to just go with this URL and instead make a new tumblr account for photography. I'm still practicing and I know having that account would help me a lot. :)

You can follow/visit my tumblr accounts, if you're interested.

ITSLILYJECIEL / LILYJECIELBEHINDTHELENS

with love, Lileth.

I would like to be different.

Hi guys.
Happy New Year. I know I am 28 days late already but it's still January and it is always better late then never, right? Hahaha. So yeah~

I'm actually thinking of changing my URL. I don't really like my current URL because it just don't feel like ME, I know I'm using my name as my URL but it just feels like it doesn't give that much "ME" and also -- it's like I'm copying Camille Co (I love love love her!!!). :)

So what you guys think? Maybe after my short vacation to Baguio I'll rearranged everything, start posting again, start taking picture, have a life outside my bedroom and actually change my URL... :)

Again, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! Let us all chase after our dreams. :)

with love, Lileth

Samsung Makes BIG BANG ALIVE.

I'll give this a try. I don't even know what to do here but I'm taking my chances. Hahaha.

As you guys know, I've been a huge VIP since early 2009, and that's pretty late already. I stalked Big Bang (just online tho, because I'm poor like that), read every news about the group, watched every show they were in, downloaded not only songs but pictures as well, and bought albums of Big bang. Those are the only simple things you can do as a fan, seriously.

I can't really tell you who my bias in the group is because I love each and everyone of them equally.

I love DAESUNG's voice. Every time I hear him sing, my heart just melt away and I also love the fact that he is a funny guy, his humor is perfect. I salute him for not giving up despite what happened to him this year and for not losing that smile through out that ordeal. (Amber Brown)

I love how cool and how perfect looking TOP is, I mean, whenever I see him, I seriously stop and stare at him for a good minute. Aside from that, I love how TOP is actually a child at heart. Every fan of Big Bang would know how TOP is the tall guy with the heart of a 12 year old kid. If you watch enough shows where they're in, you'll know what I mean. Oh TOP!!! You'll surely feel second hand embarrassment from him, in a cute and good way, that is. (Garnet Red)

I love how amazing and genius GDRAGON is. How he can bring out the best of everyone in the group. How he can control everyone but still be the cute and adorable person that he is. His amazing writing skills and his superb rapping. And come on, how can we forget about his fashion style? There is only one GD in the world of VIPs. (Titanium Grey)

I love how TAEYANG is such an amazing singer and dancer. I also admire him for being true to himself and for being so adorably innocent with girls. And his smile~ OMG!!! I would like to see him perform I need a girl live, if that is not too much to ask. LOL. (White)

Last but not the least, the now all grown up magnae/bunso of the group, SEUNGRI. I admire him for not being afraid of what people might think about him. How courageous he is. He is one hell of a funny guy and every time I watch him on shows, he never fail to make me laugh like a mad woman. He can be cocky at times but it's just the way he is and we VIPs' love him for that. :P (Sapphire Black)

They're perfect all together and that's the only thing I know. :)


Wanna watch the concert this October 24, 2012? Samsung and Nuffnang is here to make it possible for you~ :) Just click the picture below to get a chance to win a pair of ticket for the Alive concert:

P.S. Do you know that Samsung just released new sets of colors for Samsung SIII? The device will now be available in Amber Brown, Garnet Red, Titanium Grey, Sapphire Black and of course we still have, White.


with love, Lileth.

UTOLS - 1 Month

Today marks my first monthsarry with my boys, I love calling them that, Kuya R and J. I've known them for 5 months now, actually - we've been close for 5 months but I know them even way before that time. J was a former co-model and Kuya R is my friend, Larinas' cousin.

I don't know how I'll greet them. They've been celebrating this monthsarry thing for months now and just last month, they decided to let me join in. I feel quite awkward about it, actually. I don't wanna think that they're doing it just so I won't feel bad whenever they're celebrating but now it's making me feel bad. I'm not the kind of person to celebrate things like that, well because I hate celebrating and I suck at remembering dates.

But anyways, this post is supposed to be a post about them but why am I ranting? Hahahaha.

Batangas trip with them and Jhin.

Sila ang dalawa sa mga lalaking pinakamamahal at mahalaga sa buhay ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano at saan nagsimula ang samahan naming tatlo at mas lalong hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan at saan kami dadalhin ng pagkakaibigan namin pero pinapanalangin ko na sana habangbuhay kaming magkakasama. Napakaswerte ko na nahanap ko sila, walang halong biro. Daig ko pa ang may dalawang tatay, kuya, ate, mentor at boyfriend sa kanila.

Sa inyong dalawa, maraming salamat. Hindi na matatawaran ng kahit ano pang bagay sa mundo ang utang na loob ko sa inyo. Mahal na mahal ko kayong dalawa, mga utols ko. :)

Well, that was awkward. LOL. Excuse my face. :\

with love, Lileth.

Forever ALONE.

Went to Starbucks Magallanes Square in Tagaytay because I was so bored. Is there anyone who can give me any job/work? I badly needed something to do. LOL. #notevenkidding

I also went to Robinsons Tagaytay and bought cellphone car charger, fake eyelashes(because of reasons), new set of make-up brushes and some other random things. I then grabbed some MCDO foods because I haven't had any meal the whole day. #lagasangpera

AND YESTERDAY...

Went to Alabang to finally in-cash my allowance... :) I bought 2 new lipsticks, I got my car fixed and had it carwashed after 3 weeks. I know, I'm a very very bad owner. And now, I don't have money anymore. Hahahaha. #mylife

Everything was taken using my Samsung Note. Thank goodness for good quality camera. :) Just felt like saying that!!!

with love, Lileth.

IT'S TIME TO LEAVE BEHIND THE SUMMER.

091712 Coordinate

Cut-out green skull tshirt - Thrifted for only Php10.
Brown leggings - Bazaar.
Brown Parisian shoes.

I'll try to wear everything in my closet from now on. I bought these shoes last year and I only got to wear them once, for a photoshoot. Sayang, diba? I have a lot of newly bought clothes that I never get to wear because I tend to get lazy to dress up - ending up me wearing the same set of clothes. LOL. Also - it's getting a lot colder in Tagaytay now so layering is acceptable. Yey!!!

Like, share, vote, fave and be my fan here:

Did you guys missed me? Hahaha. I bet no one really did but anyways. I'm officially back!!! I'm fine. I've been busy with work and with my Kdrama addiction. Hahahaha. I'll most probably update whenever I feel like it, I'll try to post non-emo stuffs.... :)

So how have you guys been?

with love, Lileth.

...

blur.

everything in my life right now is nothing but a blur.

what do you wanna know?

why are you even here?

i just don't see a reason for you to be here.

i'm lost.

i'm sorry.

you won't be seeing anything here, for a while.

good bye.

Breakeven

"When I first met J, I thought you guys are an item."

-Jerilyn

Is what my friend Je told me when we got to talk about J earlier. A lot of people told me about this already pero kahit ang dami ko nang beses narinig yan, hindi ko pa din mapigilang ma-amaze at magulat. I don't get why people presume that we're together when we don't even look the part. I just don't get it. J and I are like siblings and inaalagaan nya ako katulad ng pag-aalaga nya sa mga tunay nyang kapatid. So why?

with love, Lileth.

Yellow hair.

Suddenly missed my yellow hair

with love, Lileth.

This is starting to be so weird.

Everything about us. Everything is starting to get out of place and I don't know what to do about it. I think this is all my fault. Or maybe not. How do I explain this here when I'm not even sure of what is going on my self. Ugh. Bitch please.

Just something I need to say.

Tinatry kong labanan. Lasing ako ngayon, iba ang takbo ng utak ko. Tinatry kong labanan lahat ng nararamdaman ko para sayo. Palagi kong sinasabi sa mga taong nakakaalam ng lahat na WALA NA, NAKAMOVE ON na ako. Pero paano ko ba papatunayan sa sarili ko na yun lang talaga ang nararamdaman ko? Paano ko pa iiwasan eh yung taong pinakamalapit sa atin, naaamoy at alam na din ang nararamdaman ko... :\

Alam ko na alam mo na din naman. Tao ka, nararamdaman mo yun. Kung nararamdaman ng mga kaibigan natin, mas lalo ka na, pwera na lang kung talagang manhid ka. Nakaka-inis lang dahil hindi naman dapat na ganito ang nangyayari. Dapat katulad lang ng dati ang lahat pero ano ba? Napakatanga ko yata talaga. Punyeta.

Gusto kong batukan ang sarili ko. Gusto ko nang magising sa kalokohan na ito. Sana mautog ako o kaya magising ako isang araw na tapos na lahat, wala na. Tulungan mo din naman kasi ako. Pakiusap. Pwede bang wag mo muna ako itext or tawagan? Kunyari na lang hindi tayo magkakilalang dalawa. Kunyari lahat ito panaginip lang. Pakiusap naman. Hayaan mo munang maging tino ako ulit. Hayaan mo munang maging normal ako, pagkatapos nun, promise, kakausapin kita ng normal, yung Beth na kilala nyo. Yung Beth na dapat eh ako. Sa totoo lang hindi kasi ako ang Beth na yun ngayon eh. May masamang hangin yata na pumasok sa katauhan ko. Ewan ko ba.

Iba-iba din kasi ang naiisip ko na paraan para mawala ang nararamdaman ko sayo at maiwasan ka. Masasamang paraan. Mga paraan na weird. Mga paraan na alam ko naman na masasaktan lang din ako. Pero bakit lahat yun parang napakagandang ideya? Bakit pati pagpapalit ng cellphone number na importante dahil yun ang number na nakasulat sa lahat ng resumes' ko eh parang napakadaling gawin? Gago ko kasi. Mukha akong tanga.

Tangina. Napakahirap pala talaga ng ganito. Dati tinatawanan ko lang ang mga taong nagkukwento sa akin ng ganito eh. Pakiramdam ko napaka-estupido ng mga problema nila.

Konting tampo mo lang, ayan ako si TANGA na tatakbo agad sayo. Kahit pa magkanda sugat sugat ako at madapa. Kahit pa magmukha akong gago sa mga nakakakita at nakakapansin, dedma lang basta masaya ka, basta alam kong okay tayo. Punyeta ka!!! Punyetang pagmamahal yan. Punyetang pagkakaibigan yan. Punyetang mundo ito.

Pakigising nga ako!!! Kailangang kailangan ko nang magising sa magulo at nakakagimbal na panaginip na ito...

CHILL SATURDAY.

With my cousins... :)

Yesterday.

Went out with my cousins to just chill in Tagaytay. Had some drinks at Jalapenos then I went to meet with my friends. Awesome day. :)

HAGGARD ... FOREVER.

with love, Lileth