The iron is hot.

Good evening...

So today was a pretty busy day for me. I kind of did a lot of things, well, it may not be as busy as some top bloggers' day but at least it's not my normal boring ass day. :D

I went to Tagaytay to buy another set of bleaching powder because as you guys know, my attempt last night was a complete disaster. I'm crossing my fingers for it to be successful now. I'm covered with hair dye as I am typing this. OTL. I actually went to our store in Mahogany to wait for my mom after that. Exciting stuffs happened there. LOL.

And that's it. That's an interesting day for me, really. LOL

Also - I would just like to say that I hate people who text me about special stuffs but never reply when I ask/reply to them. Like seriously. WTF!!!

P.S. I'll show you guys tomorrow my new hair color. :\ I'm quite uncertain about this, so.

with love, Lileth.

Stop the nagging.

Good evening...

Just a minute ago I was thinking of a topic to blog about today until my Mom started nagging me for something really stupid. I know it was partly my fault because I was driving but my mom should've asked me first before shouting and accusing me.

My mom actually asked me to accompany my cousin(M) to inquire to this school near our place. I went with her, even my other cousin(A) went with us and helped us because she went there for college. After paying for the testing fee she told me that she wanted to go to Tagaytay because she would like to visit her sister and so I agreed and drove her even though I was so tired from driving and sleepy because my mom woke me up at 6am for that. Then some things happened after that and I don't wanna include those here because those are just stupid things. And then 배이비 overheated again on us and so we had to stop at a nearby shopping mall, we stayed in the parking lot the whole time. Fucking stupid car. And now my mom told me that my car overheated because I kept on going to places I don't need/have to go. Fucking stupid. I was just doing things she wanted/asked me to do. I don't get it. Why is she nagging me about this again? Ugh.

I'm just in a super bad mood right now I wanna throw my laptop to her. Ugh. I won't help that stupid girl, ever, again. I won't, even if they cry and beg for it.

with love, Lileth.

Overheat.

Good evening...

I just arrived home, safely, at that. For the very first time my car 배이비 overheated on me. Good thing I was near a gasoline station. I don't even know. I texted my brother right away and then he told me things I needed to do. :\

So yeah, that's the only exciting thing that happened to me today. LOL. Is that even considered exciting. I almost die because I was so scared that 배이비 might not work anymore. Ugh.

with love, Lileth.

Dear boy,

I wish you’re happy. I hope you’ll always be safe. I want you to be happy, everyday - forever.

I’ll miss you and you being with her is breaking my heart but knowing that you’re happy even without me would make me just as happy, at least happy for you. I can settle with that.

I just regret not seeing you for the last time. Hearing your voice was fine but seeing you is another thing. I know it was my fault, I should’ve been more courageous and talked to you like what my friends wanted me to do. Now, everything will forever be just behind us. You’ll be with her in Korea and I’ll be here trying to move on and make the most out of my life. I’ll be happy. I will still be the same girl, no matter what happen.

I hope you won’t get mad at me for always looking back at all of our memories. I hope you can at least let me have those memories. I love those and I’ll treasure them forever, even if I know it won’t be good for me or for us.

with love, Lileth.

Stupid bitch

Good evening...

I won't be uploading/updating with picture today because I was busy and out the whole day. I don't wanna bother with editing and everything. I actually just wanna sleep and never wake up again, or wake up when my heart and mind is finally fine. Ugh. Lifeeeee!!! Why is living, most especially, liking someone so difficult? Fuck having a heart. Fuck everything about being inlike/inlove. I can just be forever alone. I can settle with that, FOREVER. Thank you very much.

with love, Lileth.